It’s time for a change

Dear Readers,

I finally did it. Moved to wordpress. It is much MUCH better than Blogger, but I’m having difficulty importing my previous posts. Will import the rest of my blog posts tomorrow.

Times are changing, or is life really just moving forward?

My last post was about my love for X-files and MULDER especially – he shaped my ‘type’.

Well, actually, I don’t know what came first, whether I liked Mulder then noticed the small but significant similarities between him and Philip or liked Philip first and then started to like Mulder. I feel it was the latter.

Anyways, Philip, was my first ever like-crush.

The first boy I held hands with…during the swimming gala.

The first boy I shut out…a bunch of my girlfriends made me cry because they said that I liked someone else’s boy (who was my good friend and in my ‘gang’ of friends) when the only person I liked was Philip. 

I have this vivid memory of me walking up the school flight of stairs bawling my eyes out, and he caught up to me and asked me what was wrong, and I said ‘nothing’.

And just like that, the ‘nothing’ killed it. Even when I was 12, I had the ‘it’s my problem and you can’t help me’ mentality.

It was one of those grade 8 idiotic things where, I like you and you like me, and we talk on the phone 24/7 but we never say anything about it.

He was such a sweetheart. Quiet, but if you press the right buttons he would talk alot.  He had that shy- whitty quality to him. And yes, he looked like Mulder.

Anyways, during our Uniphyll (company product) commercial shoot, one of the production people looked like him. And TODAY he messaged me on MSN. Which is not huge…but just really rare. We’ve kept in contact on and off for the past 6 years.

We did the usual, wow how have you been! I haven’t spoken to you in ages!!!!

And then came the

“I’m engaged!!!”

….

He’s engaged to his long-time girlfriend. Yay for him! No seriously, that’s how I feel.

At first it was a bit shocking (just because friends around my age aren’t getting married), and then there was a bit of a ‘tinge’ feeling in my heart. Not that I’m madly in love with him (NO.) More that, I do have a soft spot for him, or rather did.

Have you ever experienced that, like…you aren’t with that person you used to like/love but somehow you always end up caring for them?

It took me a long time to get over my Philip saga, and I’m happy to say that that beginning chapter has been shut for the past 2 years. (Hurrah!)

He sounded so happy and excited about it, told me about how he proposed, and mentioned briefly about his wedding plans. When he had to go, he said something along the lines of…”I wanted to tell you because you are one of the only UCC friends I keep in touch with and I didn’t want you to hear it from anybody else.”

A few years ago he spoke to me about Tiffany, and he couldn’t get over her. It is so fitting that they end up happily married. I wish them all the best, and I put my daydream of – Philip and I randomly meeting in 10 years and hitting it off – to rest. (*nodd*)

Life is moving forward fast. It was like yesterday I was hanging out with Grace, Adrian, Arun and Matt in the park, joking around, vandalising the MTR system and just having thoughtless fun.

Now all of us are working. All the future careers, future life plans we were talking about are all playing out.

Watching from the sidelines,

Stacy